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Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Wearing Out...

This is how I feel lately. And it doesn't seem it'll change anytime soon.

Work: I don't know yet if I am really being laid off or not. I did send out a job application this morning, so we'll see. M's work is still fluctuating too. I am tired of the worry.

My dad: He had some testing done last week at his doctor's request, and is now being referred to a specialist for something to do with his kidneys. I am spending a lot of time driving him to and fro.

The car: Speaking of driving, the car is running hot these days. I did take it in, and they checked the whole cooling system, and came up with nothing. So I can't figure out why it is running hot, but I don't like being worried about overheating all the time.

Homeschooling: Constantly being shoved to the back burner right now, which so isn't right.

School: I am only 4 pages into a 12-15 page paper due by 5 on Friday. I am so tired of being in school at the moment, so I can't wait to be done and free from it for the summer.

So yes, I am cranky. And tired. The stress is manifesting itself as a lot of headaches and heartburn. And a cold sore. And M is stressed, which makes him quick to get angry.

I am wondering if I should just call it quits on homeschooling for the time being, but then, we're not where I wanted us to be at the end of our school year. They both have a ways to go in math, and The Girl needs more reading work. And I feel like I am running out of time, since they're both in "middle school".

I think I am just burnt out. And I am sorry for whining, but needed to get it out somewhere.


  1. Anonymous7:17 AM

    I feel that way a lot these days. My husband tells me I need to just make motherhood a priority. *sigh* But I need to earn money, and then there's also doing what I love... Some days, it's so stressful. So I understand.

  2. I'm so sorry Gillian. You have many good reasons to feel burnt-out. We'll have to catch-up via e-mail soon. 'Til then, I'm keeping you all in my thoughts. Everything will work itself out - it always does (the road is just sometimes horribly bumpy). Take care!


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